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11th June 2024, Week 1

It has already been a week since we’ve been apart, yet we’ve managed to stay in constant touch. I’m beginning to prefer days over nights because, during the day, I am at least occupied with work. The chatter of colleagues, the hum of the office, and the endless tasks keep my mind distracted. But when night falls, an overwhelming sadness creeps in. I return to an empty space, a silence that feels heavier than ever. Unlocking the door with my own key still feels strange. I rarely had to do it before most times, Iwould simply knock, or the door would already be open I just needed to push it. Now, every time I step inside, I see that pink hand towel hanging by the door, the one we used to wedge it shut when he was here. I haven't found the courage to take it down yet. Some nights, I stand there staring at it, lost in memories. And then, there are times when I forget to lock the door altogether, closing it the same way I used to when he went out, only to realize it in the morning. I am ...

6th June, 2024- Day 1

Thinley has arrived safely, and that is a huge relief. The best part was that we were able to talk. I was incredibly anxious because this was his first time traveling, and the uncertainty was overwhelming. After waiting for hours for his message, hearing his voice filled me with joy. Even though we had been chatting throughout his layovers, his final message confirming his safe arrival truly eased my worries. However, a new reality has begun to sink in—this will be our only connection for the next two years. I am filled with both sadness and gratitude. Sad, because we will no longer be by each other’s side as we have always been. We have never been apart for more than a few weeks, and now, the distance feels immeasurable. Yet, I am also happy because he is embarking on this journey for our future, for our dreams. The past day has been agonizing, time felt like it stood still. If just one day felt this long, I can't imagine how I will endure the next 730. I know this is not easy for...

5 June 2024-Day Zero

I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that today is the day he is leaving. As I write this, a storm of emotions crashes over me, ones I can’t even begin to explain. It still feels unreal. For three years, we have been together, and now, in a single moment, I have to accept that I won’t be seeing him for the next two years. Last night was the hardest. A thousand thoughts raced through my mind, what if he misses his flight? What if it gets canceled? What if, somehow, he could stay just a little longer? Lying beside him, I held onto every second like it was slipping through my fingers. As we hugged, the reality of his departure felt unbearable. By tomorrow, he would no longer be here. It would be a long, agonizing wait before I could be next to him again. So, I held him a little tighter, felt his warmth one last time, ran my fingers through his hair one last time, breathed in his scent one last time, traced his face with my eyes one last time, and kissed his lips one last time. My he...